Why I choose to tell my story.

These stories are deeply personal and when I read it I want to look away, even though I am living it. This is the ugly and disgusting side of marriage no one wants.  I share because I felt incredibly alone on this journey.  It is the subject matter of movies, television shows and gripping love songs but I thought miles away from me.  In the beginning there is an overwhelming feeling of shame and humility that I couldn’t hold my marriage together.  The betrayal is crushing and the sense of loss over a fictional life I lead was bewildering.  How do you move forward and make decisions, when for the last eight years your decisions were based on a lifetime expectation of “us” and “we”.  That is why I give you my story.  I hope that someone else won’t feel alone and take solace in an aspect of my experience.  Possibly learn from my mistakes and find laughter in some of the ironic and preposterous moments.  Being deceived in the most intimate way is awful and disturbing but you can choose to move on and live a great life of love.  I felt I needed to give you the background culmination of events that lead to this point in my life.  What I really want to share are the actions I took immediately following and the adventures I continue to navigate daily.  These are the steps I am taking and the story of how I am pulling myself together.

A few of you may think what about “them”, do they want this story out there for the cyber world to see? Obviously once I knew her name, I googled her.  On the very fist hit it showed her twitter account and in the following subject lines showed my husbands name.  They tweeted so often his name comes up under the first hit on a google search of her.  I didn’t even know my husband had a twitter account.  Reading their months of comments and responses it was clear they had an intimate relationship and were sharing it on twitter.  She had even posted a picture of my husband with her best friend with the caption “The loves of my life” all months before I knew.  They put their relationship out there for months and now I choose to share a complete story.  There was a wife, daughter, dog, cat, home and a lifetime of promises and lies.